Thursday, June 28, 2012
I wanna feel all the chemicals inside....
It is 7:30 am. I didn't sleep too well. That is one of my favorite things about heroin, it makes me sleep soooo good. I woke up not feeling too good. Really antsy, upset stomach, chills. So I took more suboxone. By the way....I inject my suboxone. I know....it is probably stupid. But..I don't care. I dont have to use as much when I inject it. So I am feeling better. The only thing that gets me through the day, is telling myself that I will be able to use either tomorrow or the next day. How am I supposed to quit when knowing I can use soon is what helps me get through the day?! It is crazy. It gives me motivation to get through this day. I am mentally screwed up. Well, I gotta go to work...have a good day!
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Hi Michele
ReplyDeleteInjecting subs is BAD NEWS ! Seriously you're better off hitting up some gear. YES you will feel better quicker but whatever vein you used wont be there for much longer.
I've read your posts & can relate to how you feel about your addiction.
Have you considered methadone ?
Methadone gets a lot of bad press, I've been on subutex or methadone for the last 10yrs & am thankfull for the respite it gives me from heroin. Being stable on either one of these substitutes can give you time to re-evaluate & re-asses your life without having to go through all the shit of having to make cash to score
Hey. Thanks for your reply. Yea...I am sure injecting the subs is terrible for me. I should probably chill out with that. Sometimes I just don't ever take my health into consideration. Yes, I have considered methadone. I haven't given it a try yet. I am a little unsure about it though, because I have heard that it is much harder to detox from than heroin, or anything else. Or is it something that you would take for the rest of your life? I have been considering it. I just don't have insurance, and I am not really sure how much methadone costs around here. I think I also should try to get on something for depression. I think that has a lot to do with why it is so hard for me to stop. Heroin makes me happy and able to get through the day. Anyway, thanks for listening, and reading. I didn't think anyone ever read this. I will check your blog out.
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