So when did my addiction begin? Well..In high school, I dabbled in alcohol and marijuana a little. Mostly alcohol. When I went away to college, that is when I REALLY started drinking, a lot. I also started dating this guy that smoke pot every day, all the time. So I did too. That is what we did. I remember I didn't even really enjoy it. I finally tried cocaine when I was about 20 or 21. Wow, that was amazing. That became my drug of choice. I did it every now and then, but it became something I did all the time. During this, I broke up with one guy who cheated on me...I was devastated. Started dating another guy, but boy was he mean. We drank all the time. He turned into a drunk asshole. He threatened my life several times, and hurt me several times. I left him and had nowhere to go. So I started staying with a friend of mine who was a huge cocaine and crack user. I began to spend ALL my money on it. Lost my car. I had nothing.  We stayed up until 7 or 8 am everyday doing coke, then took about 15 benadryls to get to sleep. It was terrible. I eventually moved to Ohio with my friend. While there, I drank all the time. And was depressed. I had also found out that my dad was dying. So I also used these drugs to mask the sadness and pain, and guilt for not being there with my dad. Eventually I moved home. I got a job, but was drinking a lot. I met a guy, and we got very serious. We ended up moving in together. I started dabbling with pills. Just every now and then. But I would always take a lot. I have always been that way. I have a huge tolerance for anything. My dad died..I took it so hard, and started using pills a lot more. I moved on to oxy pills. Those were amazing. I felt like that was what I had always been looking for. Eventually, my habit got up to where I would snort 15 or 16  30mg pills at once. It was bad. It caused a lot of problems. I will get into all that in the future. Eventually, I started using heroin. I never imagined I would be a heroin addict.  I am currently struggling with this. It has only been 29 hours since I last used heroin. That is the longest I have gone in a long time. I am using suboxone though, and I actually feel pretty good. But I know pretty soon I will be missing the heroin. I have so much to talk about, but I have plenty of time......