Ok, so it has been a whole 7 days without heroin. I think it has been about 3 or 4 days without suboxone. Today I am feeling all kinds of aches. Especially my back. And I feel exhausted. Shouldn't these aches be gone by now??
Last nigh I drank..the first time in a long time. I was drinking alone in my room, jamming out to my music. I finished off the bottle. As soon as I took my last shot, my stomach turned and I was gagging. After trying to hold it back, I threw up. :( yuck.
I had court today. I pled guilty. I am now on probation. I have GOT to get a job. This shit sucks. PROBATION?! Oh man.
There is nothing I want more right now, than some heroin.
Anyway. I will write more later....
i thought it would be hard for me to read your posts now that I'm "sober" but really isn't. Of course I miss H-the good times, when it actually worked...but the truth is that toward the end is that it stopped working. It didn't stop working-it just stopping being a good thing in my life. Anyway well I'm glad to be talking to you again so I can see what you're up to. Miss ya!!!
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