24 hours

I keep yawning, my eyes are watery, I am  hot...gee..I wonder what this means. I am surprised I have gone this long without deciding to take my suboxone. It has been 24 hours since I did my last shot, but it was a BIG shot. I was so out of it last night. I kept waking up, confused as to why I was there and how I got there, then I realise I must have nodded off in the middle of doing something. I love that feeling..not sure why. I guess it is just an escape.

I was off work today. It is nice not stressing out about how I will get money for heroin since I was off today. So I am doing better...at least I am not using every day. And at least I am not doing illegal things in order to use. But I still want to use everyday. I just know I can't. I try to stay positive. It is hard to do..but the suboxone makes it a little easier to be happy. I feel like things will never be the same ever since heroin has come into my life. It is like I have finally felt what true happiness feels like...and now, nothing will ever be as good.

Anyway..I am trying to decide if I want to try to get something out of this cotton shot (prob wont even feel anything) or just go ahead and take some suboxone...