I stayed up until about 4:30 am. I was feeling positive and in a good mood, and couldn't sleep. I came across some random website about prisoners who are requesting penpals, just to have someone to write to and talk to so they don't feel so lonely. A lot of them are on death row. Death row is so inhumane, it makes me sick..it's sick that our government can legally kill people like that. Now, I know a lot of them have done some very heinous things, but I just can't bring myself to feel ok about it. There has to be another way.. But I am really considering writing one or two of them. I can imagine how lonely it must get there, and it makes me feel good to bring any kind of happiness to someone else's life.
I finally fell asleep somewhere around 5 am. I dreamt all night about heroin. I ALWAYS do that when I am trying to stop using. It is like my brain is trying to do everything it can to break me and get me to use. I kept waking up because I was feeling some detox pains, so I took a little suboxone and went back to sleep. Now I am feeling pretty good. Just sipping on some coffee, enjoying my morning off, and trying to stay positive. I go to work at 3....hopefully I can have a good night and won't have terrible cravings. It is always the hardest once I have that money in my hand.
I hope everyone has a good day!
talk to me if you are lonely. call me...text me. i am clearly someone who is in the same boat as you are the moment....trust me i feel lonely as hell even to where i feel the need for a bf but that inner emptiness and loneliness is why I use. is there a way to send private messages on here?
ReplyDeletethanks. i am not really sure about the private message thing. i havent been using this too long, so I dont know..i dont think there is...let me know if you find out..
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